As a few of you know, I’ve had a pretty shitty week. What I thought was in the bag and mine, was not, and it was a rather devastating blow. I have a deadline coming up and I don’t see me accomplishing it. This is not a deadline I can brush off. It HAS to happen.
Either way, a gift arrived for me this evening and yet again, I am just humbled by the love of my friends.
These were accompanied by dark chocolate.
Chocolate which was eyeballed by a certain sweetheart…
I shared.
Apparently, lunch will be included with this…
zee's muse 
That is so lovely. Good friends. Keep them! And hopefully the gift has brought your mood up a bit 🙂
I’ve never been the type to stay in the dumps for long. And I wasn’t about to sit on my tookus being angry for long. (Wish I had a relative – who doesn’t live with us, thank God! – who knew that.) But I did need to have a snit fit.
Now to figure out what to do. My cats MUST be moved by Jan 2nd and I REALLY need a home to move them to. I was hoping with a job and a few months paychecks under my belt, – well that’s the perfect solution, but perfect solutions never come my way, so now I need to be innovative. The last thing I want is to find my cats a new home that doesn’t include me or Spawn.
Trust in the universe. Something will come up. There must be the perfect job for you out there!!
Well I need to start that perfect job tomorrow. I have too many deadlines that are being imposed and I can’t put them off. And in the past when I’ve taken ANY job, it’s been a huge pay cut and all I made was enough to pay the gas to and from and MAYBE (but not usually) lunch.
I am *really* sorry to hear this.
Devastated is an understatement.
I asked – what can I do to improve my interview skills and the response was – Nothing. you’re wonderful. The class loved you, enjoyed you, made it clear who they wanted. It was a hard decision.
Which makes me think they flipped a coin…
There are so many arbitrary things that go on in interviews that it’s almost pointless to stew over them. (I had a situation like that last year — essentially they said, you knocked this out of the park. We chose another person for this random reason you could not correct for.)
The only stuff locally that’s hiring is warehouse. Minimum wage. Or fast food. I don’t have the back for it. I have a few friends telling me it’s time to write that original novel. Look at the shit that’s making money hand over fist….
But I digress…
If you can do it in the heat of passion? But writing isn’t really like that for me, anyway. And then you have the work of marketing it.
About 8 years ago, I had a fanfic author contact me about helping her with the first chapter of her fanfic. She sent me the 1st chapter which wasn’t quite 2 pages and all dialog. By the time I got done with it, she had 15 pages of filled out introduction, setting of characters and placement. She has been one of the top selling authors for Elora’s Cave for the last 6 years now. I have several friends (all slash writers) who have gone from fanfic to being able to quit their day jobs and are publishing and doing well.
Writing for me tho… is simply a creative outlet. I don’t know if i WANT to make a living at it. When the Muse speaks, I have serious output. When he doesn’t … it’s like pulling teeth.
And there is gnashing of teeth.
But it is something I’m looking at. I Don’t see me making a million next month if i put out the great American BDSM novel.
Although ANYTHING is better than 50 Shades of shitfic…
Even Ellora’s Cave is now apparently having business problems … but yeah, I know what you mean about the inspiration coming and going. If you’re going to be unemployed and don’t have other plans, you might as well write if you can, though.
My little Gary Fuller bunny is pink and fluffy and would easily be rewritten – since I’ve only written the first chapter and it’s just sitting on my harddrive.
go for it! I’d buy it.
HEHE! I thought slash was your thing! I am most definitely NOT a slasher…
I read het all the time.
Heh.
I have nothing against slash – just not my kuppa. Real person, I will run the opposite direction like crazy.
zing…Speedy Gonzalez …
My interface with fanfic is almost exclusively emotional. I’m looking for that moment that feels “real” to me. I like hot sex but I’m not focused on which kind — usually in fanfics I really like the sex plays a symbolic or metaphorical role in the story (whether that’s apparent to the author or not) in addition to its arousal potential. For various reasons I tend to find that slash meets that standard more often than het in the stuff that I read, but there are symbolic elements to het sex (romance, for instance) that simply fly past me 95% of the time.
I need plot with my sex. In the beginning, one shot, PWP was great, but now… naaaaaaaaaaah, they need something besides hot, horny and ready to screw at a moments notice. I have this wretched need for happy endings and deep, abiding love. That’s what I tend to write. I think it’s probably apparent in Manna and I KNOW it’s apparent in Rider. And I also have a preference for middle aged characters who ARE carrying ‘baggage’ or experience and it doesn’t bother me if she – or he – isn’t drop-dead gorgeous, perfect stick-model thin or wealthy.
But that’s probably pretty obvious.
It’s funny because what I write (and read, fanfic wise) is very different from the commercial stuff I read that I get from Amazon. Sure, I have a LOT of romance, but the vast majority of my reading library are cozy to light-hearted mysteries or Biblically based Action (Right now, I’m reading The Ark by Boyd Morrison. I’m also very fond of The Templar Series by …oh crap…. Paul Christopher… I think Paul Christopher wrote those. And I like the Alex Archer series… )
I know. I’m weird. I’ve embraced my weirdness.
Zee, Chocolate..Thorin or Thorout..???? Flowers are beautiful..
Thorout has the cute little headtilt and he’s pretty… easy-going compared to Mr Dancing All Over The External! (Who is still pouting over on the bookcase.)
The flowers are lovely, aren’t they? Someone knows what I like.
beautiful flowers for a beautiful lady 🙂 sorry to hear about job… I’m praying for something better to come your way soon 🙂